Thursday 30 January 2014

Raya cinee..=p

Pehh.. what..hapdet berogu during working hours? sah bosan tahap gaban kenn.. hehehe

today is the last day before Raya cina holiday. So, there are many people at the bank.hohoho~..
Wahh..so, many people... cuci mata sat..*_*

K, larh.. ekcelli tade ape nak cerite2 sgt.. hmm..share la sket.. td adala sepasang suami istri yg dah agak berumur dtg sini utk cancel umrah baitulmaqdis.. huhu.. segan2 dia cakap, sbb dia nak guna duit, utk beli keta utk anak dia.. dpt keje kat tmpt jauh sket..so, knelah dahulukan anak.. hmm. terpaksalah dia cancel, and amik pakej biasa yg lebey murah.. nmpakla wajah ayahnya tu yg agak sedih....

hmm.. rs nak nanes pla ak tgk.. hehehe.. tatau nape.. sbb ttbe trgt.. ibubapa  ni sanggup wat pe je kan demi anak.. tp, kte sbg anak??=((.. ape je jasa kita.. betullah org sll kata,kta tatau camna sygnya ibubapa kt anak, smpailah kte ada anak sendiri. hmmmmmmmmm..aku sedih, sbb ak selalu buat parents aku susah, risau..
sbb tu la, sekecil-kecil bende even hanyalah senyuman ibubapa.. klau aku mampu buat camtu, ak akan usahakan..sbenarnya, salah satu sbb juga, ak pulun nak dapat dekan every sem, sebab tu hajat mak aku.. dia rasa seronok.. ak biasa je.. tp, scr tak lansung, bila mak hepi, ak pun jd lebey bersemangat.. (nmpak tak perkaitannya kat ctu..hehe)

Klau kita btul tak mampu sgt berjasa kt ibubapa, well, kita takkan pernah mampu.. tp cubalah sedaya upaya tak membebankan mereka.. plg2 pun, setiap kali hbs solat, jgn lupa doakan kedua ibubapa kita..=)..

K, lah, beta nak crite sket kat tempt kerja ni adalah..seorang namja.. hehehehehe.. dia runner.. selalu antar kutep pasport ke HQ opis.. namanya MrAi... ceh, mr. Ai la plok.. =_=
ak tataulah, dr hari petama ak nmpak dia, mcm dah tertarik..HAHAHAHA.*lawak tak..*dia tadelah ensem mana...muka baik la kot.. cakap pun lembut je..hehehe.. ada skali tu dia mai amik paspot, then, ak sorang je kt kaunter, pastu, ntah nape, aku cakap dgn dia macam malu2.(rs nak lempang diri sendiri)=_=.. hahahaha.. ak senyum je la.. hoho..tu je la.. ak tak pernah cakap pape pun dgn dia.. dia selalu dtg jumpa hajiA, pastu, lepas amik apa yg dia nak, dia blah trus.. hehe.. tadelah, nak borak pnjang ke hape.. dia ni tadelah byk sgt ckp...hmm..ak pun tatau nape cam tertarik dgn dia. sbb muka tenang la kot.=_=..hmpir hari2 dia dtg.. hehehehe=D..
satu masalah lain adalah, ak cuma tahu nama dan muka je. haha.. asal mana, umur brape, status suma tatau.. tah2 dah kaweng.hahaha.. tp rase cam org ganu.. hmmmm... sbb kadang aku curi2 dgr hajiA ckp dgn dia kat tepong.. hehe.. takkan nak tanya, segan bai..=_=..bahaya.. hish.. habis karang kakQ,HajiS and Haji A duk kenekan ak nnt.. Dahla, haji A n haji A tu mmg selalu usik2 aku.. haih.. *susah tau jadi org comel*..*k,nak nyorok, nnt ada org mo lempang aku.hahaha*

Neway, de lagi sorang kwn aku nih ha.. Miss A la sape agi.. ttbe je mesej ai duk cakap dah fall in luv dgn mamat waitress mana tah..hahaha. mcam2 larr.. =_=..dah la baca blog ai.. puih..=p tu nmpak sgtla tu bosannya ..hahahaha

ok lah, sok cuti.. smpai selasa.. so jyeahh..=DD.. hmm..perancangan..hmm.. masih dalam perancangan..~

Anyway.. sekarang ak macam tak sabar2.. nak tunggu bukak sem.. hehehe.. nk cepat hbs praktikal, jumpa kawan2.. and cepat2 habiskan sem..then, bley dah nak kawen (lol) ^^~ Mac, cepatlah datang..and to be exact.. 28 Mac.. =D hohoho.. hope everything will go smoothly..huh.. takut jgk ni.cuak jgk ni.. dah ready ke haku nih..=_=.. hmm..insyaAllah..I'll try my best.=D..yg ptg, just be myself, and do well~~~.jyeahhh..ganbarimas

Eh eh, trgt, ai tak ambil MUET lg.. hish.palis2. seb bek trgt..kang tak ley grad tak pasal2..hahaha..

ckp, psai MUET, hrtu ayachang suro ak daftar TOPIKU(slang japang la kan..hehe).. hmm..ak ckp apa.. aduiai.. dia bolehlah.. masih gila2 korea lagi.. aku ni dah besara.. umo2 camni nak pkir pasal masa depan, kerja dan kaweng2 je..mana nak maing kpop and korean dramas lagi.hahaha.. *ceh, bajet matang sgt la tu biha.=p*.

K lar.. ai nak sambung kerja.. huh.. ada ke kerja.=_=.hmph. buat2 ada kerja lah..HAHA..

annyeong~.
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Ps: codename is..  Q-kung.. hajimete deatta toki .... ureshii.ima mo.ureshii.=) hayaku aitai.~

Monday 27 January 2014

Smile because it is the best make up one should wear.

Sbenarnya sesuatu masalah atau isu itu tidaklah rumit..tapi.sebab kita 'buta'..
Jawapan ada depan mata.. tapi, sebab ada banyak sgt 'wall'.. tu, yg kita tak nmpak2..
Bila semua wall tu kte dah hapuskan.. maka, terjelaslah jawapan untuk segala permasalahan dan kekusutan yg di depan mata tadi..=)

Maka, alang2 mode puitis ni.. ak nak bersajak la sket ka.hehe..

Life must go on.. day  by day..
Life is short...
Walk embracing your ambitions.
Never look back, never give up..
Day by day...

Everyday I see different thing.
Every second.. every minutes..
Things might happen slowly..
May goes abruptly...Day by day..

Appreciating every single living..
Saying alhamdulillah seeing good things.
To show our gratitudeness towards..
Allah, the Almighty..

Never turn your back away.. never never once we forget about the purpose of our living.. never tired of making dua'. prayer, asking forgiveness from God.. never.. never give up in your life..

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Pesanan kpd rakan2 sekalian.. jika ada org menyayangi kita..hargai kita.. jgnlah sesekali kita memperkecilkan perasaan dia.. mungkin kita rasa 'mewah' ada peminat yg sanggup buat apa saja demi kita.. tp, kita tak tahu..dalam hati mereka.. betapa payahnya mereka mempertahankan perasaan mereka itu..bukan mereka tidak mahu cari lain..bukan tidak ada yg meminati, bukan tidak boleh.. boleh.namun, mereka telah MEMILIH anda..drpd berjuta-juta pilihan yg ada di luar sana.. maka, bertuahlah anda sebenarnya.. siapa di sini y menolak tuah...??? seseorang pernah berkata.. 'bodohla mana2 lelaki yg mempermainkan ****'...love.. is about timing.. hargailah masa yg kita ada.. hargai org2 yg datang membawa kasih kepada kita... kelak, diri merana bila dia hilang dari pandangan mata.. *pesanan pd diri sendiri juga..*.
jom.sama2 jadi baik.... =).


Sunday 26 January 2014

Hikayat Puteri Gunung Ledang, & Bel Ami.

Tiba-tiba trgt akan pementasan drama sem lalu bersama Mr.P and mama.. dan si besar, dan budak kecik 2 ketul.. huhu.walaupun x dpt muncur kat layar skrin..*suara latar jerr*.. tp tu la pengalaman kan.. yg beta nak petik skit dialog puteri gunung ledang dgn si tuah.. masa perkhabaran meminang Sultan Melaka disampaikan oleh bendahara bertemankan Tuah..

Peh.. sayu sgt.. lebeh kurang gini la.. Dek kerana taat kpd Sultan, Tuah dgn hati rela melepaskan puteri gunung ledang..

jap.. biar aku dig blk dialog tu..

OMGEE.. ak ada dialog smpai prt aku je(nenek kebayan)..T.T ak dah buang rupanya yg skrip penuh..haaaaaaaaaaa..benci lahhhh. sob3.. penat dorang potostat.T.T

Tp, ak nak cakap, Puteri Gunung ledang tu mcm kuciwa Tuah snggup 'jual' cinta mereka kat Sultan Melaka.*ececece*.. dan Puteri pun berstuju terima pinangan Sultan dgn 7 syarat tu... ~ hmm

Motif?? Lu pikir la sendiri.. ... *peh.kasar kan.hehe*

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Bel Ami dah smpi final ep siang tadi.sob3.. But glad it was a hepi ending..hehehe.. *_*.comei sgt larr.. aigooo.. akhirnya, stelah hmpir lebih 10 tahun tunggu, Matae akhirnya bukak kan hati dia kat botong.. *terharu..sob3*.. drama biasa la kan.=_=..

motif?? Usaha tangga kejayaan??..tp tu suma drama je.. hmm~

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Ak tgh layan chocolate frontier (jdrama) baru matsumoto jun~. hehe.. crita ni agak romantik sket la.haha.. ak honestly dah lm la tak tgk cter jpn.. tp ak rasa.. org2 jpun nyer drama cinta la plg tulus stakat nih..yg selalu beri kesan kt dalam hati beta.. heheh.. mebi sbb gaya bahasa dia mcm lebih fefeling sket..camni la lebeh kurang.. hero tu miant kat sorang girl ni.. dia sanggup buat apa sahaja..walaupun dia tahu girl tu two timing..=_=.. dan girl tu suka makan cokelet tau.. so, laki tu berazam nak buat apa shj asalkan girl tu boleh smile.. and gembira.. huhuh..siap pergi paris bagai utk belajar.. dan 6 thn kemudian, dia balik, jd choloatier yg pemes, tp, girl tu plak dah nak kawen.. dia suh laki tu buatkan wedding kek dia.. sbb girl tu suka sgt dgn cokelet laki tu.. kejam kan girl tu.T_T.. huhuhuu... pastu, ada pompuan yg lain plak.. ak panggil 2nd heroin la.. dia ni minat kat hero... dia jadi chef cokelet pun, sbb dia nak bantu hero tu berjaya dlm cita2 dia.aww.so sweet sgt.. tp dia tak pernah bgtahu perasaan dia kat hero tu.. dah 7 tahun lebh gakla dia memendam rasa.. hing..

motif??

ak tertarik dgn ayat 2nd heroin tu..

"I usually don't have anything ambitious to do in my lifeu.. But after I met Souta-kun..For the first time, I really have something i REALLY WANT to do..that is.. to realise his dream, and help him become a successful person.. "

peh..skangt ada lg ke girl camni.. ada... *tuding kat cermin*............ . . . ..

Ak tersentap sket ble baca dialog dia..sbb terasa tau.. ak pun sbenarny takde cita2 besar yg ak ingin buat.. tp, setelah jumpa 'dia'.. Ak ada cita2 yg memang nak sgt buat.. iaitu nak tlg dia.. nak selalu ada dgn dia...tp, mungkin kasih ak tak setulus 2nd heroin tadi.. di mana ego esteem dan selfishness ak masih ada.. =(..see.told ya.I'm not a good girl.huhu. I kenot 'give' 100% of myself to anyone...........


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Sabar... skarang dgr lagu ni plak.. Recently addicted to it.. Ak rs lgu t-ara suma best2.. hehe.sbb tu dorang mcm pemes kot..


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*awas, mode jiwang!*

Recently ak merasakan hidup ak dah macam drama sgt.. atau drama yg cam hidup ak.. ak dah tatau.. tatau tatau tatau................................

Sbenrnya.. nak cari yg baru.... mudah sgt.Cuma nak taknak je.. tp.... tp...... ..... . . . . Bagaimana hati ingin terbuka utk yg lain jika hati masih mengekori byg2 kamu......... *sigh*..

simpati atau cinta atau kasih sahabat?? aku makin keliru...........................
Tp, pastinya, ak ingin selalu ada dekat kamu..... 

Tidakkah kau sedari akulah yg kau sakiti..*jejiwang pla*
Hanya satu cara... lepaskan aku pergi....... jgn cari aku lagi.. jgn buat aku risau lagi...tp kutahu kau tak mampu berbuat begitu.. Dan aku akan terus kejar byg2 kamu..dibelenggu kamu...mahu selalu ada bila kau perlukan aku.... dalam diam.. jgn kau pertikaikan.. smpai bila. ak tidak tahu..letih mungkin.......

Namun..... sehari demi sehari berlalu.. ak semakin terasa diri hanyalah beban pada kamu..
Maka, jika benar itu yg kau mahukan.. akan aku tunaikan hajat kamu...sebab, ini jg mungkin hadiah terkakhir aku mampu beri untuk kamu.........

selamat tinggal.....ak janji takkan ganggu kamu lagi.. T__T..

*****

Before my feelings turn into obsession, I'll let you go...... I'll walk away from your life..
sometimes.. it's better to keep silent.. then, explaining to them..your true feeling..They'll never want to bother.. because you already know..watever they gonna say it will only hurt you even more..because  u already know.. it's not a good thing to hear anyway.. so, it's better to keep away....... '

rasa yg tertinggal...

diluah mati emak, ditelan, mati anak..

bye.....sayonara....



Sunday 19 January 2014

End of semester's rant..korea korea korea sgt lahhh=_=

Pehh.. and so, it was the last day of my sem 4.. wee...another semester has passed.T_T.sob3... Final year is approaching..hmmm...

As usual, we ended up being the last who finished paper..tourism information planning..damn hard..T_T.tsk.tsk..I had a baddd feling over this..but it's okay.. like someone said.. 'Ini smua dunia..' hohohohohohohooho~

The funny thing was.. Heheheheehe.. How do I say this.. my 2 other lucky chingus. aigoo...these two friends are so in lovey dovey mode..sob3.. rasa nanaes ble tgk dorang berpisah smlm.. jeles sket pun ada.hehe.. tp sayu pun da...mesti dorang rindu2 nanti...hohohoho....*mcm gelak jahat pun ada.=_=*

Anyway, they'll meet again next sem..so, not a big deal.ugh *ini smua poyos~* =.='

I decided to go crazey, so we ended up doing a late night project..hahahahaha.. mmg berangin je udara kat melaka malam tadi..sayu sgt sgt... and waktu kami 3 org jalan2 at jonker w/ Koko and his scandal(our senior).. my heart rs sayuuuu gilaaaa. hahahaha. wae wae wae????

Anyway, life must look depan, no look belakang2.okeh? hehe

So today, balik2 melaka, trus lepak w/ my cutest crazey dongseng, ayachan..haha..since I ady promised to dateu with her, and no other time would be the best, so i decided to do straight there..lol..tak sempat2 nak balik rumah, trus merayap*bagusss*=_=
Well, who knows... ada it expo.. hehehehehe.. heaven~ lucky! so many things.. so many things I wana buyyyy.. You might think I'm weird, but... compared to clothes, I enjoyed gadget shopping more..=_=.. well.. may be because I can't wear any cloth just I want, regardless of the price?? But it's not all, because I think I like cosmetic shopping too and recently I'm so into BAG.=_=.. hmm. weird.. so many interests I had..Don't u think so??? But don't worry.food shopping will still be number one xDDDD

*I was thinking to bring back my financial strict planning or someone gonna go bankrupt soon before she got married!!" =_=

And.. yeah. Lucky me and ayachan got to see Fuiiying and Sam...*__*.wHOAahhhh.. Aya nen cheongmal daebak ida~~~~!!! we are like the only malay girls there amongst chineses in the crowd so, somehow .... we are famous.. well not me, but aya chan la.. smua retis tu kenal dia meh~ *gaya ckp pun dah mcm cina sket.hahaha*... The movie was really funny.I got free tic from aya's frens.. hehehe.. aya so cute laaa.. her frens.. 5 chineses girls like met coincidentally at the fair, and they ended up fangirling together. LOL.. i was like.. 'huh?? what is this????!! *looking at her poster* and her excited frens when I first met her.. hahahah.. they're so sweetly cute la.... which, reminds me of my old days.. and i truly miss those times..HONESTLY..=_=

Aya told me that Fuiying got a Malay gf.. and I was like..whoah.... *_*.. and she added that Sam still single..and i was like..okay. ~line clear.. hahaha.. *when two crazey girls met, this will happen..pardon us..=_=*

Her bestie, called Ginny is so cute too..And strangely sounds sooo malay..ckp pun x mcm org cina oohhh no wonder.. because her ex was a Malay.. hohohoho... wahhhh.. then, I told aya chan, we should migrate to korea soon, and marry korean namja.. kkkkkk.. so that we can stay there.. no need to travel there like twice a year..xD  Well.. before all the money will be sucked up for our crazey interests.=_=..*can't help it..SOB3*..Someone pls hold onto us.xDDDDD

Bla3.. with aya.. and I just realise, while I was away strangling*cough2* w/ heartbroken,tears,(huh???!), worries bout exam, and get annoyed w/ slow intenet connection, I had totally lost it..'my other world' T_T... I was so jealous and feeling admirable at her while she told me all their stories with those korean chingus.. awwww.. so sweet lah.. *for some reason, I miss attaching myself to k-ness xD..*.and my Korean proficiency is slowly fading..T.T which is a pity!!!! I shall go back to KP and take the formal klass again.. hmmmmmm.

oK, NUFF the spazz..shall back to reality..  Well.. sometimes, it feels refreshing.. to do these crazey things.. xDDD.. and for some reason........ It reminds me of ... lotsa ppl.. that I had lost connection with.. sob3...... I meant.. my international frens... huhuhu.. May be I'm just not good at keping in touch.. hmmmmmmm.. NVM..ppl come and go..and only sp people will remain.. right??=)

I should have bought that..and that.. and that.. ahhhhhh.. i just realised, it has been a long time since the last time I pampered myself w/ gadget shopping  *pouting*.

this.. all because of this thing.. hahaha..*cambest je..nak try je.. nak try je..eh, dah terbeli pla..=_=*.pheww..habislahhhhhhh lepas ni kau makan bubur je bihaa..=_=

Wi-Fi modem..RM58 for 8GB per month..free modem, and speed pun mantopp..bley share2 dgn mmber..hehehe~*tu yg ptg..!* kellas.. saiz pun ok2 jer.ringan dibawa kemana-mana. so, pe lgi, layan je la kan.. hehe.. bleh gak wat keje kat bilik nnt next sem duk ayam tuh.. huh~ yg ptg, no contract,bley terminate bebile mau.. say yohooo.. and bleh nak hold untuk month mana2 yg tanak pkai, so dorang tak charge that month, n continue for the next..tade masalah.. hmm niceu.. pastu, plg lawak, sbb ak dtg lmbat, so free gift dah hbs, tnggal, voucher memanah je.. well~

Hmm ekcelli sbb mcm da bosan guna umobile..so ubah angin la kan.lalala.. celcom pun da pnah guna dlu2.. and abg promoter tu cam sungguh2 sgt promote.. so, ak pkir, why not give a try kan..heh~
coverage nya pun pun lg besau.. hmm..ok la kan~

Ak tatau nak wat pe dgn nmber umobile nih..tukau nmber dgn ayah ku lah.. lgpun, ak rs dah tiba masa ak tukar taliponn..wheheheeh..xDDD hdup mesti ke arah perubahan.. ehh?*ada kaitan ker??* layan jerrrrrrrrr

p/s: Hmm.for some reason, I have a mix feeling for tomorrow.. I should look forward to it right..right  right????!!!>_< It's the thing I really wanted to do..... hmmm..

Someone is slowly forgetting me.. sob3... May be cause I always be annoyance to him..Told him ady, don't be fren w/ me anymore. He shouldn't come to me anymore, when I totally ignored him last time..but whyyyy?? why keep coming keep coming..and keep coming..tsk3... he ignored that..My chingus said, he may be ego.Don't wana admit his feeling.. Hmm.I dunno la.. may be he's not ready.. he has so many things in hand now..(fOR SOME REASON, i remmbered someone's phrase to me.. 'jgn smpi bila pintu hati ak dah tutup, time tu, baru pintu hati ko nak terbukak.."... hmm manusia ni kan.. bila bende tu dah takde, baru nak hargai kan..biasalah tu...)

I dun want to add burden on him.. while I cannot be a truly supporter to him..at least, I kenot be a burden.. but what to do.. always did the other way round..hing..forgive me yaaa~~sobs2... T.T then, why always play w/ my feeling.. hingg.. *this maiden heart of mine..* and hurt his feeling many2 times..I should be more understanding.. Well.. I did.. But... just that.. sometimes, I get too emotional.. ugh.. I'm just an annoyance may be.. sob3..T.T. well.. I think i'm too much too. tsk2.......I feel guilty..hing.......~  Or may be, I'm just thining too much, while it's actually nothing..ha-ha~ *gila ke ape aku nih..=_=*..dilemma sungguh.over tau.. *tarik nafas*

Well, single is always the best.. maksud saya.. single feeling.. ha-ha. not attaching heart to anyone.. no heartbroken, no nanes.. no rindu,,(erk..?*)..  But jyeah.. apa boleh bwat, aku ni gatal sangat nak jugak cintan cintun.*hahahaha*.rs nak lempang diri sendiri*.hmmph~

Hmmm.. Update blog ni mcm gaya balas dendam sbb tak dpt nak update betui2.. dah bape lama dah.. haha.. mengarut apa dah ni. bagusnya korang baca smpai last..hehehehehehexD

K lar, I nak pegi gosok baju untuk besok.. hmm.~



Saturday 11 January 2014

wasiat kepada gadis-gadis comel. hehe

"Too much lies..become habit..
Habits... hardly to remove..may be persistent..
Develop into personality.. well inherited.. to next generation...
Build.. into such... what we called, corrupted community where evryone tell lies like saying 'good morning' everyday..."

What is in your mind.. what is this..
Mempermainkan perasaan org ... adakah begitu menyeronokkan...
Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Adil kwn2 ku yg baik..

Wahai gadis2 comel, jgn mudah tertipu dgn perasaan sendiri...
Jika engkau bertemu seorng lelaki, berkwn, selesa..
Fikir lg dalam lagi.. Sbb dirimu begitu berhrga utk sebuah perasaan yg menipu.. kerna kau terlalu ikut emosi.. engkau tak slah, tp jgn terlalu memberi, terrlalu berharap, terlalu syg...smpi engkau keliru.

2 perkara besar ak beljr smlm...

1) betapa menakutkannya manusia itu boleh sesuka hati mempermainkan org lain.. mungkin ada rs bersalah... tp.. diabaikn...?

2) Berkwn biar dgn ramai.. agar tdak terlalu berrrharap pd suatu2...smpaikn mungkin terkeliru dgn hati srndiri...


Ak bertanya balik pd diri sendiri..benarkah dia cinta yg aku cari... tp mengapa ia kelihatan rapuh.. atau, adakah mainan perasaan lg? Kenapa tidak pernah tahu serik.. ak mencari jwpn sbenarnya.. dan mungkin kerana itu.. ak tidak dpt lari lagi..dari dia... jwpn hmpir kujmpa... mungkin.. kerana penghrapan yg palsu berupa syg atau cinta yg diberikannya telah mengaburi mata ak sbg satu bentuk 'perasaan unik'...saban hari... dan baru ak tersedar.... ak... tidak rmai kwn rapat lelaki... namun... sesungguhnya walau dia kwn rapat lelaki sekalipun, ak berasakan tindakan dia.. agak keterlaluan sbenarnya.. ya, istilah yg ak suka guna dari dulu sedari awal berkenalan..:ambil kesempatan:

Tidak kira walau betapa dia, atau org lain cuba mempamerkan ia kpd suatu bntuk yg kelihatan 'sedikit mulia' sekalipun... tp ia tetap..realitinya..telah sewenang wenangnya mengambil kesempatan diatas sebuah pershbtn yg ikhlas.....tidak kira walau mereka katakan 'lelaki mmg begini.,ini adalah mekanisme kami' sebab, itu smua alasan... yg tdk bertnggungjwb...

Namun, belum trlmbt sbenarnya utk sedar dan berubah...cumanya.. tidak kira walau corrupt mcamana pun dunia, ak ttp tidak bersetuju dgn gaya hidup sesuka hati... cuba klau perempuan tu dah tgkap cintan gilalah dgn dia..siap de slogan... 'i kenot live without him...he's everything to me'

Kemudian, suati hr prempuan tu dpt tahu, lelaki tu sdh de gf... nahh! Hmmmm.... kasihan sgt kat gadis comel itu..

Aku? Entahlah.. mungkin..klau dia trus tidak serius dan trus trang, ak akan meletak harapan yg tak pasti dan jadilah spt gadis di atas.sbb...ak baru sedar, yg nature ak ni..mudah berharap... so, ak kne berubah kat ctu,sblum ak keliru dgn prasaan sndri..^^

Dia? Mungkin peristiwa ini sdikit sbyk boleh matangkan dia sdikit.. bhw ...'sejauh manapun dunia telah corrupt di mana kecurangan merata rata... tp...sbenarnya..masih ada org2 yg ingin hidup dgn cara yg betul tak kira walau brapa kali kne aniaya, atau diambil kesempatan....sbb dia yakin,Allah itu Maha Adil..'

Dan juga...

'Bagi wanita, harapan itu adalah suatu perasaan mulia.. yg bermaksud, pergantungan mungkin...dan seswatu yg sebati dgn wanita...di mana dia melihat bhw lelaki itu yg mampu membuatkn dia gembira..dan 'hopes' itu sendiri adalah satu perkataan yg positif. Jadi, hendaklah juga ia diambil serius dan bkn permainan perkataan semata mata..'

Tiada.. langsung tiada penyesalan bagiku.. sbb ak seorng positif.. apa yg berlaku, org yg ak pnah bekenalan, smua ak trima seadanya dlm hidup ak... baik tuba, racun, atau intan yg mungkin mereka berikan..sbb ak yakin,ada sebab Allah datangkan mereka2 padaku.. samada aku ubah mereka, atau mereka ubah aku, atau kedua duanya..

Dendam?marah? Hmm..jujur semua ada sikit pd awalnya terutamanya apabila trus menerus hrpn palsu diberikan 'tanpa sengaja/kesedaran' dan terus terang.. tp, ak memutuskan utk fikir positif.tiada gunanya semua tu.hanya menyakitkn diri sendiri..

Berkwn smula? Mungkin ada masalah, mungkin tade masalah. Haha. Tp, ak kan suka kwn dgn dia. So, takde sbb plak ak nak putus kwn.. lgpun, ak pun x brapa pasti dgn perasaan sendri(antara syg sbg kwn?teman hidup??)=_=...cuma satu, ak tak boleh terima dia sll tipu aku... everytime ak tnya, dah ad gf ke..dah ad calon ke... tu je yg ak tak puas hatilah ekcelli.=_='dia hutang kata2 kemaafan kat aku..

Hmmm...mujurlah ada si mrZ tau.. klau tidak, smpi sudah ak tatau apa2.. si Ab pun, ttp tak matang2 camtu... lelaki kne sedar tau, dan prempuan jga ya.. bhw... mungkin..kte ni ada terberi hrpn palsu kat sesape tanpa kte sedar, mungkin...kte tak rs apa2..namun, bagi org2 tersebut, perasaan itu adalah segala-galanya bagi dia... just..bygkan kita d tmpt mereka saja.. simple.. kte nk tak org buat kat kita mcmtu.. xnakkan..so jgn buat kat org lain tau..

Ak? Takkan mengalah.. sbb ak cuma ada 'choice' dlm hidup ni.hohoho.
Walau sejauh manapun dunia telah corrupt.. Sbb?Ak yakin dgn agamaku,pada Allah... dan sabar iu sesungguhnya indah..hehe


Ps: ak nanes ms ab msg smlm...namun, ak fkir blk..why why why i nanes?? KECEWA?MARAH?SYG?RS DITIPU DGN KIJAM?...
Ak tak jmpa jwpn pasti..mungkin jgk sbb tgh bndera jpun... =_= so, mmg kadang2 ada rs mcm nananes,dan mngkin ini adalah ms yg tepat jgk?? Hoho..tp kan.. hish.. kuang asam gakla AB ni.. tade timing len ke pun nak trus trang..haha..dahla ak tgh sakit sesungut nih.. gila sakit guling2 lagi.duk tmbh penyakit aku je.bikin panas je ni org.huh!!!

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